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Wednesday 27 November 2019

I Remember

I remember...
When darkness spread above me losing the dots 
When a sword of light cuts the darkness in half 
I remember...
I curled up in a ball in the pave way 
Surrounded by wild flowers 
Waiting for the sky to swallow my feeling 
Hoping for the rain to wash my agony

Dark Thoughts


In life, you only need money and time. With money, you can buy everything, even happiness. When your source of happiness is a book, you’ll need money to buy them. When you like to go traveling around the world, you need money for the necessities on the way. With time, you can have fun as long as you want. Fun you can buy. Happiness, friends, love can be arranged if you have the money and time.

You don’t need friend, not exactly. Every human in the world mean to live alone with themselves. Family, friends, enemies, they’ll come and goes in your life. They just passing through your lifetime and then one day you’ll never cross path with them ever again. You won’t live forever with them, they won’t be by your side forever. 

People are meant to take advantage of each other. Whether it was friends or enemies or families, they take advantage of you. Family take advantage of your existence to make them feel save and think they’re not alone in this world. Friends take advantage of every little thing that you have. Time, money, even your brain and strength. They’ll squeeze out all your abilities until they’re bored or don’t have to endure any time with you anymore. And enemies, well, they’re the easiest to read. They didn’t exactly hides their purpose unlike the others. They simply make your existence as their entertainment, or maybe their purpose to keep living in this world. Neither of it has a good outcome.

So you need money. It will take you to the journey of life. You can learn how to life with money. That’s when you paid your school fee. Or you can be whatever you want with money. A pretty girl, a charming guy or different kind of you everyday, change who you are over and over again. Life is so easy when you have the money. At least you have one less thing to worry about when you have enough money. 

You can buy friend with your money. You can buy the fake one and be the real you—which I know is a bitch, everyone is a bitch—or you can buy the real one with the fake you. And let me tell you something. Even if you want to fake yourself, you need money. To impress someone we have to be someone else, and it takes money to provide us to become someone else. It’s the same thing with family, and even easier with the enemy. Just by the fact that you have a lot of money will bring a lot of enemy. Heck, even the poorest thing in the world have an enemy.

Not just the money though, you also need time. Time for you to life, to have fun and spend your money. Even if you have all the money in the world but have no time, it’s all will be worthless. How are you supposed to spend all your money if you’re busy at the office 24/7? Time is a really important thing in your life and to accompany the purpose of money. And sadly money can’t buy life. Well, they can slow it down, but that’s as far as it can goes.
Time can make money, but money can’t buy time. So how are you gonna get them both? That’s something I’m still looking for. Money is limitless, but time is limited. You just need to set your priority right. If asked what you can live without, you can’t life without money. It’s the primary source for you to get everything you need in life. Food, house, clothes, friends, even family. But you can’t also life without time even though you have all the money in the world. So between time and money, there should be a balance. Don’t waste too much of your time and don’t waste too much money because then you’ll feel something’s off with your life.

Watching



Two wheeled machine passed by like a parade
The eye was opening wide in the orange world
Helping to go through when the ball of fire rolling to the other side
Glimmering flicks of all the colorful eyes shining the otherwise dark spaces
One by one they gone, leaving the trail of rush hour

Expect



Wasn’t expecting you to move on soon
Wasn’t expecting you to forget
I was still standing, frozen
Looking at the same sky you’ve stared a moment ago
Wishing for the night to never change into the day
The same moon you showed me
Don’t want it to fade, don’t want you to fade….

Sunday 21 August 2016

Limits in Power



No I can't fly, can't swim across the sea. I don't wonder why, it's just the way it's gonna be... (Jonas Brothers – The World)

One sentence can have a very deep meaning to me. Like my favorite lyric above. For me, that lyric means that I have limits, and I can never surpass that limit no matter what I do. And I also don't have to wonder about it because that is how I am designed. Everybody has flaws, and as a human we have limits in terms of our power. And there is always opposite to everything in this world. So, if there is a limit to someone's power, there is also something else who have unlimited power. That's one way to believe in God, for he has no limit in everything, unlike human who is not perfect.

I don't have to get upset with my limitations, because if I have limits then I must have a power in the first place. Most importantly, even though I have limit, that doesn't mean I have to just give up when I thought I know my limits. Knowledge is an illusion for me. The more I know about some things, the more I seem to realize that I'm lost, that I don’t know anything. I don't think it is useless... In fact it is very useful to guide your life. It's just... for me, sometimes when I learn new knowledge I will realize that I am lost, and in order to get back to the right track I need to gather new knowledge about that 'right track'. It seems like I was back to zero, you know. I know something, but at the same time I'm clueless.

But that doesn't mean I have to stop looking for knowledge because that means I let myself to get lost in the blank space. This also applied in knowing my limits. Even though I thought I know my limits, that don’t mean it is really my limits before I break. Just like a rubber band, we can always stretch our limits, and it will be the end of our stretch limit when we break. I'm not afraid of breaking. There will always be a way back to fix broken things. Even if it's beyond broken, there will always be a way back to the time before we were born, or to the afterlife because this is not the only world I would be living in.

When we know our limits, indirectly we will know how powerful we are. When we realize the great abilities our little body possesses, we tend to forget our surrounding and be blinded with power, and more power. By keeping in mind that we have the limits, it’s like we are pulled back to the ground after realizing that we can fly so high we think nobody won't be able to touch us. It makes us down to earth, not boasting how great we are to the world or regard the rest as no importance.