Once upon a time, I was scared of the
sea. When I saw little tides rolling to the shore, I always thought it would
take me to the middle of the sea through the rolling. It was frightening, since
I couldn’t swim at all, and the idea of being dragged to the middle of the salt
water made me stay in the sand in front of the foam that washed to the side of
the sea. I stared at it. I stared long and hard, contemplating the risk that I
would take if I did put my feet in the water, surrendering all the weight of my
body to my two feet that was drowned under the wave. Will I really be dragged
to this endless water container? Will this small foamy waves pull me to the
middle of the sea?
No, I guess not. It took a long time for
me to convince myself that once again, my paranoia had clouded my judgment of what
could and couldn’t kill me. The small wave was merely persuading me to come to
the water, with its foam trying to invite me to the sea. And in the end of the
day I was the one who decided if I really wanted to go the dangerous side of
the wave or not.
So I put one feet to the rolling water,
testing the sea before put the other once I was sure nothing will harm my feet
under the water. When I looked down to my hidden feet, the sea water started to
come back to the sea after being flung to the land. That was when I felt this
thing. For a milliseconds my paranoia popped out to the front of my mind but as
soon as it came, it’s gone, replaced by this feeling, the feeling of moving
when you didn’t even move a muscle in your body. It’s as if the sand was sucked
to the sea while I stood tall, unmoving even though I almost lost my balance.
It’s magical, it’s thrilling. I know I was such an idiot to feel that way just
by the wave, but this was a new experience for me. Not only because the pull of
the water on my feet, but also the feeling of overcoming your own fear by just
looking deeper than it seems.
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