Draft

Is this what’s going to happen when I build my own family? The father will not earn much. The mother will try her hardest to make ends meet. And then, when the child is born, the father will discipline her so bad that violence become an excuse. The child will grow up as a very timid girl, who wishes to become a rebel, but instead will go back to her shell as soon as someone speak a pitch higher than they used to, a sign of the childhood trauma. As if it’s programmed in her head that one little bad behavior will result of same pain she experienced when she first felt the pain that comes from her own circle, the very person who should have been the first one to chase away everyone who tried to hurt her. As they are all got older, the kid will already developed a high wall around her heart, not letting anyone in, not letting herself feel. The parents will fights with no make ups, attempting to separate but then suppressed it and agreeing to live in different room instead. The parents will no longer feel the love from each other, living only as a companion till finally one of them, or perhaps both, forever leaving this world. The kid who already had lack of love since childhood, facing an even loveless environment growing up, having a really hard time believing in love, or in someone else other than herself. Because everyone has a very big power of crushing her already fragile heart. Because she no longer want to feel the hurt she felt a long time ago so she settled to the emptiness….